Lost days

Jan. 25th, 2020 02:28 pm
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I slept in till 1pm today after staying up till midnight. I've had almost two weeks of bad health, zombie days and shitty sleep, probably due to some cortisol bullshit: I think this was making up that time, but I'm really struggling.

I had shit I wanted to do today -- but more than that, I had a day that wasn't centered around plans with other people. A day to sort of expand and take stock and get stuff done and maybe get myself an hour in a coffee shop just to chill. Of course, by the time I got up, my brother had texted TL and made dinner plans, so like... lovely, I haven't seen the nephews since before Christmas! But I also feel really incredibly off-balance.


You know how you can ignore a problem for ages, but then when you look at it, you see the extent of it, and it becomes overwhelming? I think I'm having one of those.
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I would say it’s been a strange week, but — they’ve all been strange these days, haven’t they?

Cut for family stuff. )

On the upside, we visited our friends on the weekend! E put the kids down for a nap like the moment we arrived, and we managed to zip through Bandersnatch before they woke up. Victory! I still find Black Mirror to be the tritest form of misery porn, but they did some interesting things with the format! At least one end made me cackle aloud, and it was a cool exploration of the video game industry in the UK in the 80s (so specific :B).

I think I would have eaten it up when I was younger. It dives into symbolism and the meta of destiny and self-determination in a way that would be much more interesting if it wasn’t also slyly trying to insinuate “and aren’t you a bad person for playing this terrible game we set up”. Undertale did it better. If you’re trying to make a point about how people will take the abhorrent options in the Choose Your Own Adventure novel you made, you better also acknowledge that the whole thing is artifice that you set up, and if we’re bad people for playing it, you’re sure as hell a bad person for making it. That or that (GASP) your audience can tell the difference between fantasy and reality, and humans have a tendency to stare into the void when we know it’s safe to.

:BBB I have beef

And, ah! I wish I could talk about work. We just got word down the pipes that we’ve made a bid for a VERY COOL show. AHH. Ahhh. ahhhhhhh.

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