honestly it's #1's world most of the time

[jkatkina]

If there are ~two wolves inside everybody~ mine are thus:

Sleep, rest, denning up. Learning to be okay with less. Doing less, having less. Contentment with self, with presence, with just who I am and where I am. The surrender of earthly goals in service of allowing the soft animal of my body to simply exist in warmth.

and

Teeth sinking into the world, a joyous, fierce grab, hunger, HUNGER, HUNGER, connection, expansion. The collection of experiences, people, joys, pains, fears, successes. The uncompromising drink, swallow after messy swallow, from the cup of life. The desire to see how far, how fast, how bright.

I mean, I like em both, the tension only comes in the conflict between them

but also shit like this happens, where having spent three months post-surgery necessarily living in the space of Wolf #1, the hot second I'm feeling human again and an opportunity comes down the pipes to test my limits Wolf #2 allows no quarter and goes YEP WE'RE DOING THIS

"Hey, you want to try your hand at supervising? I think you'd be good at it!"

"Sure, sounds like a fun challenge!"

*facepalm*

Comments

[obstinatecondolement]

I hope it is a fun challenge and doesn't overextend you. Also, it's great to see you!

[jkatkina]

Oh, it'll be fine even if it's bona-fide too much. It's only a five-month contract, at which point I can decide whether this is something I'm equipped to or interested in continuing to do.

Good to see you too! How have you been?

[obstinatecondolement]

Pretty good! I'm looking for work at the moment and I am being considered by two different yarn shops, either of which would be great. Fandom wise I have been consumed by Cobra Kai for the past year and a half, haha.

[corvi]

Good luck! I hope it's fun! Good to hear from you.