The works

[jkatkina]

I'm feeling more myself today, the last day of my three-week unpaid holiday (lol), which I'm going to stubbornly take as a good omen. I am afraid of the change going back to working full time will wreak, but I am firmly putting that fear aside for now. I'm sitting on a sunny hillside listening to some plinky guitar music and all is well in the soft animal of my body.

Dreamwidth in particular is where I've been coming to get away from the rest of social media and let my sphere shrink for a bit when I need that. It's impossible to not want to be involved in trying to right the racist wrongs currently happening -- to somehow be supporting, rallying, mourning, donating, amplifying voices of colour. I do my best. I've been trying to engage with my more racist relatives on Facebook when they post bullshit "Jesus sacrificed himself because ALL lives matter!!!" memes. I haven't been out to a physical protest here in Vancouver and am beginning to realize that may not be a way I can contribute, at least not regularly, which means trying to triage what kind of online "help" actually helps and what's just privileged noise, and then executing on what I can. It's a lot. It needs doing.

But I may not post a lot about it here. At least the outward work. I'm trying to dig inwards, too, which does fit into the wheelhouse of this blog being unrepentant navel-gazey.

Anyways, we had DnD yesterday, and everyone in our group seemed to need it. Marla is coming over again today since the seal has been broken, and I'm glad of it. She's gone near full nocturnal and apparently stopped eating for three days last week, and I will not stand for this. She will get fed, she will get a bit of social contact, and if she feels like it she will get some things off of her chest. Honestly I wish we could have her just come stay here for a bit so we could keep an eye on her and help out, but I'm not sure where we'd stash her if she's sleeping in the day and I need to use my office for work.

Comments

[lb_lee]

We're not doing much online or social media about what all's been going on. Everyone does what they can, in the amounts they can, and I think that's okay.

[jkatkina]

It is what it is! There are many things I wish I had a greater capacity for, but I will continue to do what I can do.

[dray]

Ooph, good on you for engaging with the extended fam. Thank you for that extra work.

I hope that work goes well and continues to be the right mix of "AH!" and "WOO HOO!" over this contract. I love you! I support your work. We did a little good helping Marla's fundraiser. Perhaps we can do some more work in that vein over time.

[jkatkina]

It's infrequent, but I try. It's really frustrating, because one of my cousins down in the US has kids with a black father, who will be read as black, and she's still spouting this horrible racist shit.

So far so good on the work front, if I can keep my hours in line with my quota. D: gonna be harder with keys

[corvi]

It was nice to have you around a bit more. I hope your first day back goes well and presages things continuing to go well.

[jkatkina]

It was good to be here, for sure. I'm going to try to keep it up -- journalling and keeping in communication with folks feels good and healthy.

So far so good on the work front. Slow start, and it makes me nervous about quota, but the first background I've painted for this show, I like at least.