There's gas in the tank
Oct. 17th, 2019 03:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jkatkinaSo, with reason, I've been feeling pretty good lately.
Weekend was crazy. Three solid days of people, which pushes my limits for sure. Community Day and DnD on Saturday, and Thanksgiving on both Sunday and Monday, with my family and E&R and their kids respectively. I'm shocked I'm not sick — for those counting, that's three toddlers and one baby and all had snotty noses. Good job, immune system.
This is also my last week working on a project that I find technically enjoyable (I love me some rendering-heavy paint, especially of organic scenery, and boy howdy am I RENDERING SOME PLANTS m'boys) but sort of soulless. On next to a big franchise that helped shape my childhood and I'm excited to put my hand in.
More than that, though — well. A few things. The others I'll talk about later, but, oh man.
I think I'm in the right job, finally, after years of stress and confusion about it. At least for the time being, it's proving challenging and rewarding, and after a long, long time of not, I'm rebuilding my sense of self. I keep rising to the challenges at this work. I keep doing better. The hunger in my soul has a direction and though it still flares up from time to time, it's been helping me really sink my teeth into chasing projects and making impressions.
We had folio reviews yesterday, with the art director of the entire company. He'd done some several months ago and was back for the rest of us, to get to know all of us folks up in Vancouver (Titmouse is mainly based out of the US). It was serendipitous, honestly — in those several months I've been on three different shows, with three very very different styles, and honestly, I've killed it at all three. I've worked hard to.
He had noticed. I never expect that. In the ten or so minutes I got to chat with him, I learned that 1. He already knew who I was; 2. He had already taken note of my skill and versatility, and 3. he's got an eye on me for the future. We had a chat about the kind of folio improvements I'd have to put together to nail a position on his A-list, and organized to have coffee next time he's up.
This is big. It was a good conversation and the most validating thing that has happened to me in a very, very long time. It's one thing to know you're good at something, but — I'm so used to just simply not being seen at all, when I'm working in a group environment. It's powerful to be seen.
Weekend was crazy. Three solid days of people, which pushes my limits for sure. Community Day and DnD on Saturday, and Thanksgiving on both Sunday and Monday, with my family and E&R and their kids respectively. I'm shocked I'm not sick — for those counting, that's three toddlers and one baby and all had snotty noses. Good job, immune system.
This is also my last week working on a project that I find technically enjoyable (I love me some rendering-heavy paint, especially of organic scenery, and boy howdy am I RENDERING SOME PLANTS m'boys) but sort of soulless. On next to a big franchise that helped shape my childhood and I'm excited to put my hand in.
More than that, though — well. A few things. The others I'll talk about later, but, oh man.
I think I'm in the right job, finally, after years of stress and confusion about it. At least for the time being, it's proving challenging and rewarding, and after a long, long time of not, I'm rebuilding my sense of self. I keep rising to the challenges at this work. I keep doing better. The hunger in my soul has a direction and though it still flares up from time to time, it's been helping me really sink my teeth into chasing projects and making impressions.
We had folio reviews yesterday, with the art director of the entire company. He'd done some several months ago and was back for the rest of us, to get to know all of us folks up in Vancouver (Titmouse is mainly based out of the US). It was serendipitous, honestly — in those several months I've been on three different shows, with three very very different styles, and honestly, I've killed it at all three. I've worked hard to.
He had noticed. I never expect that. In the ten or so minutes I got to chat with him, I learned that 1. He already knew who I was; 2. He had already taken note of my skill and versatility, and 3. he's got an eye on me for the future. We had a chat about the kind of folio improvements I'd have to put together to nail a position on his A-list, and organized to have coffee next time he's up.
This is big. It was a good conversation and the most validating thing that has happened to me in a very, very long time. It's one thing to know you're good at something, but — I'm so used to just simply not being seen at all, when I'm working in a group environment. It's powerful to be seen.
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Date: 2019-11-28 04:50 pm (UTC)Also yay being noticed by the powers that be for your obvious awesomeness. :) Especially for ending up in the place you're called to, that's so wonderful.