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I'm out watching the salmon in a local creek. It's that time of year. The air smells like rotting fish and my hands are cold.

It's interesting, the way they go. Nature documentaries show hero footage of salmon flinging themselves up waterfalls and sprinting along creekbeds. It's not that.

I can see maybe a dozen in this little stretch of creek, and they move so, so slowly. Little gains of a few inches, and then rest. I've seen two or three make longer sprints up a high-current areas, but mostly? Mostly they're still, resting, still swimming against the current just enough to stay stationary, gathering strength for the next bit of incremental progress.

There's one that keeps coming up to another one, the same pair every time, and one bites the other on its side. The bit fish flails, throws the biter off -- they're both briefly grabbed by the headcurrent and they both lose ground. I don't know why on earth the one keeps biting the other, but they keep doing it, over and over. It's the most commotion any of the salmon I can see are making. They both keep getting pushed further back down the creek, none of the others noticing or caring, living in their own bubbles of slow, careful, tired prerogative.

It's been a rough couple of days, like, really rough. I kind of feel like I'm swimming upstream for reasons I don't understand, too. I hope there's something kind at the end.
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Today I went on a walkabout. It's been years since I'd been on one -- since last time I was jobless with no need to job hunt, actually, which was in Calgary almost a decade ago, so I hadn't done one proper in Vancouver yet. Wanders, sure, long ones, sure, but a walkabout has several basic components that should be considered:

  • You must have no plan for where you are going

  • You must pack water and snacks and prepare for the elements

  • You must have music

  • You must not have a time at which you need to be home

  • You must go somewhere you have never been before

You need at least three of these for a proper walkabout. The objective is to let your feet and curiosity lead and the rest of you follow, and then find your way home from there. Cities are good for walkabouts, as you can get lost in a city and find your way again more safely than you can in the wilderness (unless you know that wilderness well).

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My feet hurt, my calves hurt, my thighs hurt, my butt muscles hurt, and I am happy.

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